The saddest thing... Monday, February 20, 2006
i cannot play the piano anymore... my skills are all rusted!!!~ sobs *breaks down* had no classes today... according to my new time table i had only 3 days of classes a week... which in a way is good cos i get mondays and fridays off which means to say i've got 4 days off in a week... sad thing is... the timing for all subjects sucks... long breaks in between and one of the days... classes till 6 in the evening... which mean again to say... by the time i arrive home it'll be way past 7 or could be 8 depending on the traffic...
since today's a monday... i ain't got classes... woke up at 8.30 by sis to send her to her friend's place for orientation week... my see how fast time passes... she's in college now... and i'm old and wrinkly... in 2 months time... i'll turn 22... which adds up another year of aging... baaaaahh... anyhoo my point is... since i've got nothing to do... or in denial actually cos i am supposed to finish my research questionnaires way before the semester break ended... till now it's still partially done... bad... am procrastinating... today not planning to do anything at all... while rotting in front of the comp... having nothing to do cos' afterall everyone's classes started... those who has classes aren't online... those who hasn't is away on part time jobs, job hunting and series marathon-ing... which left me solely dwelling on my own boredom
soon in the mid of rotting... it hit me that i've not touch my old' dusty cobwebbed by now piano standing silently in one corner of my hallway... being so lonely and depressed covered with at least a thick inch of dust... i went down the stairs... stared at it and decided to give it a try... afterall i felt a pang of guilt for not playing it since the past 2 or 3 years... and man was i soooo disappointed that now i could not even finish a single piece smoothly... my fingers are hard on the piano... my skills are rusted... baaaaahh (again)... the pieces that i once mastered and ever-so-proudly to show it off no longer is... i can NO LONGER play the piano smoothly without making 3/4 of the piece with mistakes... wrong notes... slow in reading the notes... countings are all off... fingerings are all wrong... *sobs* i hate myself at times like these... i can't even entertain myself now with music
back to the comp now... as u can see... or not i wouldn't have been blogging right now... i am determined from now on to practice my piano at least twice a week if not once to master back my old pieces that i was once proud of... gambatte yooooosssssssh!!!~

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